just having a look at this draft i wrote on 6th - and didnt publish. i can see why. but looking back on it now i think i will put it up.
6/2/08
tried googling the women thing putting the word 'single' near the end but its no good - there are only dating things to find.
anyway, i had my hair cut today. i had a bob and its shorter than it has been for years. when i was younger i had more hair and it was a bit thicker so having it short sometimes was fine for a change. but this feels quite strange. still at least it will grow again. its another of those instances when you suddenly just dont recognise yourself, and have to take on board - yet again - that you just ain't young no more, and you dont look like what you think you look like!! s'ok, i can handle it!
the week is being taken up again with stuff. who was it said there is just too much stuff in the world. anyway i agree sometimes. stuff. gordon bennett any chance i can one day actually get on with some of my own work? you get sent envelopes full of stuff through the letter box daily, some of which look as if i ought to pay attention to, so that takes up time. the rest has to be chucked out, but first i have to tear off my name and address and put in the bag of all the paperwork i'm collecting which could be used by identity theives if i just put in the bin. apparently. one day i shall take the bag over to a friend's garden where we shall have a bonfire and drink a glass of wine. or maybe two.
oh i had a message on my phone today. it said '097543... if you are the account holder ... bla bla..' what account? who? what are they talking about? an automated voice leaving a stupid automated message expecting me to know somehow what on earth its about. i just hung up. i will no doubt find that i have inadvertently signed up for something, or that i am inadvertently getting into debt because that is some kind of account i have got..
just cant be bothered. dont they realise life is just too short. i used to have a block on people phoning who withhold their number - but since joining talk talk i havent any more - so the stupid phone calls start again. so i often dont answer the land line.
grumble grumble. i sometimes think i would like to live in the woods or hills with as little as possible and not have to get all this paper through the letterbox and things to sign or keep up with and remember about - so much STUFF. i just want to do my work.
of course i probably wouldnt really like to live without anything at all - it would be quite hard, its a romantic notion really which would have its own difficulties and dilemmas. and i would miss friends. i would miss cafes and chats and meeting for a pint or a movie.
i have to say, though, that the job i do now has been made far more as in amount of work - than just not very long ago before everyone had mobile phones and the internet. the job has at least doubled if not more due to having mobiles and internet. people's expectations go up and so more is expected .. because it is possible .. it is expected.
its like 'build it and they will come' sort of thing. i really liked that movie actually. but then it wasnt about mobile phones and the internet. it was about people.
get a life! i hear - yes actually i do have one and would rather like to get on with it - where was it again? oh yes - when i have got this thing sorted, or, when i have got the money together for.. paid that bill.. remembered that deadline.. phoned this or that to sort out some mistake or other .. then i can get some space..
aha.. but then i have to remember to eat! (yet another thing..)
oh well thats better, had a bit of a rant.
tomorrow's another day!
12/2/08
and yes that tomorrow was another day - which i cannot remember what happened on! and by the way i still dont really like my hair, but most of the time i forget about it as luckily i dont have to keep seeing myself in a mirror! wouldnt it be nice if when we get older, instead of our hair thining, it actually thickens! and the colour gets richer! so when we are young and the whole world's our oyster (so to speak) our hair could be fine, thin, any old colour - grey? no maybe not - but we get 'enriched' in colour and volume with age instead of t'other way about!
never mind. grow old gracefully and smile. it'll come tae ye all one day! oh yes, and something a friend said when i was moaning about my short hair - she said 'people will still see you but with shorter hair'. isnt that simple?! how nice! you know it quite changed how i thought.
i have just realised joining this onto the other post will make it awful long. will stop now.
by the way does anyone know where the expression 'jumping johosophat' comes from? its something my mother used to say a lot when i was young and it just popped into my mind. i do that sometimes - wonder where a word comes from. i should google it.
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