Thursday, 31 January 2008

sad news

just been to the dentist, so am skiving off work a bit. although it is so cold in this flat (howling gale and snow going on outside, cold draft coming in window!) i might be better getting out to work. anyway, while waiting for jab to wear off thought i would check emails and do some blog stuff.
oh dear have just heard that my sister is moving to America. i knew she and her family were thinking about it, and even then i had to try hard not to miss her already. we dont live near by but i have always felt that we are 'there' not that far. but, now it is real. definate.
i understand why they are going.
cant write more now.

Saturday, 26 January 2008

Consciousness and better places

I read an interesting article in a paper last week (guardian or independent cant remember which) about Consciousness. i meant to keep it, but i think I've chucked it out by mistake. it was about consciousness evolving; very briefly he was talking about how books in 19th (i think he said) century changed people's consciousness because the way writers were writing gave light to the idea of an 'inner life' and so, as people read, this 'inner life' became conscious.

oh not explained very well, but hope people see what i mean.

now young people are using computers and the net, and there are general 'fears' that they will grow up isolated and unable to interact; but he (the writer of the article) says that their reading and writing skills are being enhanced and their interaction skills are being developed in a new way! thus consciousness taking another evolutionary step perhaps!

(of course years ago the introduction of reading books was viewed with huge suspicion, and reading silently on your own caused a dreadful worry).

consciousness develops out of consciousness. well, i guess how else could it?

sometimes coincidence happens - or synchronicity - anyway, another evening on my way home on the bus i just happened to sit by a pal who was on his way to the observatory. he said he was going to an astronomy class there. we talked about what he was doing - his thesis is on Consciousness - i hadn't realised that before - and he is coming up with a definition for consciousness. but this study entails learning about lots of subjects including quantum mechanics - even astronomy. we talked about why there are no 'renaissance' people any more - obviously because these days people specialise, mostly because more is known, and therefore more time and focus has to go on each subject, and (i think he said) because in our age the microcosm is studied as a model rather than the macrocosm - which is new compared to 18th and 19th centuries.

as i have got older i have sometimes felt like a grumpy old woman, and i have had to take a good look and realise that i have to start to let go of how i think things should be; when i was young we had such different values and we thought we were right. it is quite strange to find oneself at an age when it is time to give way to younger values and ideas! but that is how evolution happens, that is how life goes on.. oh dear, we thought we were going to make the world such a better place!

Friday, 25 January 2008

Happy Burns Day! - and a bit of quoting

I get a 'bulletin' email every friday from an organization - and this was a bit of it:-

'Today is the birthday of Robert Burns – whose empathy for the inner dignity of things (the panic of a fieldmouse) often reminds me of our wee brother from Assisi. A man’s a man for a that, raises honest poverty above the tinsel of rank and wealth – and remains one of the world’s great calls to international brotherhood. “Then let us pray that come it may, and come it will for a that. That man to man the world over, will brothers be for a that.” '

and then later:-

'Following my outbreak of optimism last week – reader David Cook sends this powerful quote from a Professor David Landes book, The Wealth and Poverty of Nations.

“In this world, the optimists have it, not because they are always right, but because they are positive. Even when wrong, they are positive, and that is the way of achievement, correction, improvement and success. Educated, eyes open optimism pays, pessimism can only offer empty consolation of being right.
The one lesson that emerges is the need to keep trying. No miracles. No perfection. No millennium. No apocalypse. We must cultivate a sceptical faith, avoid dogma, listen and watch well, try to clarify and define ends, the better to choose means.”'

(thanks to Laurence Demarco for that, oh and to David Cook!)

gosh this is so relevant for me - the optimism thing - i do try hard to be so, but sometimes fall by the wayside - so all encouragement and reminders to be optimistic are welcome!
today someone said that this is the right weather for Rabbie's birthday - i wish i could remember the exact quote - but its to do with him 'arriving' in a January gale (but in Scots, not English!) - and it is incredibly windy and rainy today.

so how did i get there - from Burns to optimism to the weather - for goodness sake!

musttryharder musttryharder musttryharder....
but will stop now.

Tuesday, 22 January 2008

skies and birkin

it has turned that icy cold again today. many places have flooded again down south from all the recent rain. poor souls. The Borders has lots of snow. it is around 5pm and the sky has gone that translucent blue of twilight, the kind of blue that you cant paint or else people would say you invented it. there is an elderly gent looking in the window of 'the letting shop', there are the obligatory smokers standing outside having their fag. being an ex-smoker, i sympathise, but am glad i dont smoke any more. it is amazingly freeing not to smoke; i was amazed at that feeling at first, like a heavy weight lifted off my shoulders. but i did miss it a lot - mainly because the activity of rolling up was a friendly thing you did that connected you with all sorts of people doing the same, and because its true what they say - smokers are just more interesting people! a survey done a few years ago between art college students and university students discovered that most art students smoke, and most uni students dont! i rest my case. (actually i suspect that it has got more to do with neuroses).(should that be neurosis or neuroses).

there is something in the Guardian about Jane Birkin. i was at school with her many moons ago. she was huge fun. she would not remember this, or me, i dont expect but when she left (before we did) she went about collecting our autographs just in case!! wise lassie except i dont think any of us got famous - but if only i had got hers.. i will never forget her - a tom boy and fearless always laughing. dear birkin -(we called her birkin) - go well. it was an absolutely dreadful school by the way.

Sunday, 20 January 2008

just starting

this is my first blog, so i am going to take some time to get used to blogging which means i might keep deleting stuff i write at first. so it will probably be a bit boring for a while but hopefully not for ever.

i might at some time explain my title, but not at the moment.
instead i will upload a small video.

this is a trial run - hopefully it will work.

this is fairly exciting.. i cant think what to write as i wait. my sister has been blogging for ages, she's pretty good at it now.

it is one of my brother's birthday today. happy birthday you.

no - video is taking too long, will need to try again when i have more time.

have to go - more later.